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A VERY PERSONAL HELL

June 24, 2011

Hell, I have done a lot of writing concerning Hell. However, I have a personal ‘Hell,’ that I am going to record. This is not the fiery, fervent hell of the bible scriptures. No, this is a very personal hell that I endure just about every night when I close my eyes in sleep.

I pray to God above that I never get locked into one of these night visions of mine. To get locked in one, and never able to escape would be a hell which could not possibly be described.

The first instant I wake, I feel frantically that I am still in the environment of my dream. It is such a relief to discover that no, I am not there, but in the real world.

One would assume that since I have studied deeply, and have written many articles concerning the scriptures, and those things spiritual, that my dreams at night would be in close connection to those things.

No, and again no, they do not concern such as that. How I wish that they would, or any other thing than what seems to be the center theme.

In my dreams, I am always lost, wondering down a lonely road, not in the day light, but at dusk, when the world is beginning to darken.

Each night in my dream, I am always lost only in different circumstances. Never the same other than me being totally lost, not able to find my way back to where I want to be.

Last night for example. I found myself in a large city. Roadways in every direction, roadways at ground level, and roadways on top of one another, and traffic filling them all.

I am always on foot. I found my self in an alleyway, alone, and frightened at not knowing which way to travel. People were all around me, in the doorways, laying on the pavement, strolling in all directions. Pimps every were advertising their ‘wares’.

I stopped a fellow strolling by, and asked him which of these roadways, that were above me, led to my home town. He pointed straight ahead, and stated that one. I then right away headed in the direction indicated. After I went a mile or so, the road was blocked by railway cars. I tried to walk around them, but again was blocked by a stream of water.

I reasoned some how if I could reach the top of one these tall buildings which had me blocked in, I could somehow see the right way.

I then tried to enter a building in order to get to the top. Yet, at each level, each higher level, on each floor, as I tried to reach the next level, it was somehow blocked. Seems like I am able to overcome the blocks at each level, until I come to the last one, and I am never able to win victory over it. The same every night, and in every dream.

It matters not how I try to find a path leading back home, it is always and forever blocked by some insurmountable obstacle. There are always several levels that I try to overcome, and usually I do overcome them, until I face the last one, it somehow always is an impossibility.

Never have I been able to realize my desire of reaching my destination. I am always alone, and after some time, I become frightened at not knowing what to do. I always wake with that sense of fear. These dreams plague me just about every night. It is getting where I am dreading the night time, and sleep.
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Moses said to the children of Israel “pick up your shovel, mount your asses and camels, and I will lead you to the promised land”. Roosevelt said, “Lay down your shovels, sit on your asses, and light up a camel, this is the promised land”. Now Obama has stolen your shovel, taxed your asses, raised the price of camels, and mortgaged the promised land!
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Speak wisdom to a fool, and he will call it foolishness
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3 stages of life
You have to take a nap but don’t want to
You want to take a nap but can’t find the time
You can take a nap, but can not go to sleep
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The difficult takes time
BUT
The impossible takes a little longer
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Not a guilty person in prison, it is always the other guy’s fault not his.
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My personal belief and standard:

THE TRUE STAFF OF LIFE:
ROMANS 10:9-10
YOU CONFESS WITH YOUR MOUTH, “JESUS IS LORD,” AND BELIEVE IN YOUR HEART THAT GOD RAISED HIM FROM THE DEAD, YOU WILL BE SAVED.

FOR IT IS WITH YOUR HEART THAT YOU BELIEVE AND ARE JUSTIFIED, AND IT IS WITH YOUR MOUTH THAT YOU CONFESS AND ARE SAVED.

ECCLESIASTES —
[9] The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; and that which is done is that which shall be done: and there is no new thing under the sun.

[10] Is there any thing whereof it may be said, See, this is new? it hath been already of old time, which was before us.

There is no new thing under the sun, what was somebody’s past, is our future. Prophecy is the relating of past history.

Romans 8:
[29] For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren.

[30] Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified

EPHESIANS 1:
[4] According as he hath chosen us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before him in love:
REVELATION 17:
[8] The beast that thou sawest was, and is not; and shall ascend out of the bottomless pit, and go into perdition: and they that dwell on the earth shall wonder, whose names were not written in the book of life from the foundation of the world, when they behold the beast that was, and is not, and yet is.
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We are eternal entities, being ordained prior to the foundation of the world. That is, those of us who have our names in the ‘Book of life, from the foundation of the world.’
fsur439@aol.com

Frank J. Surface Sept., 23, 1931 until ??????????

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